Friday, June 17, 2011

The Break Up

The past day has been one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with in my life. Scratch that, it has been the hardest thing ever for me. As of a couple weeks ago, Leslie was starting to feel nervous about getting married and she was not sure she wanted to go through with our wedding the way she had been feeling. I pleaded with her and begged her to stick it out, all while giving her advice, praying for her, and asking her to speak with as many people as possible to help her through this nervousness. But after much effort on both our parts and not much result, we both agreed that the best thing for us to do would be to call off the wedding. We both want to be happy with who we are marrying and right now, with these feelings, she would not be happy to walk to the altar in the temple with me.

As you can imagine, I am a wreck and I am having a hard time with this. I love Leslie more than anything and I was totally ready to spend my life with her, but I cannot force her to feel a certain way and I can't make these feelings go away. I know you all care a lot about Leslie and me and that's why I wanted to let you know here. I appreciate your prayers and thoughts.



6 comments:

Jaime And Kalen said...

we love you and we love Leslie.. We are so, so sad for both of you and you will both continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.

Aaron and Cassie said...

We love you both too. You both deserve to be happy and we really know this is hard, trust us, while we weren't engaged yet we broke up for 3 almost 4 months after 3 1/2 years of dating before Aaron finally got his head straight and realized he did love me and we got back together. Then we dated for another 4 months before he finally proposed! But it sucked so bad being without him, I feel your pain. You're both in our prayers too, MUAH!

Joe Behunin said...

Hi Pig, We are so sorry, I can imagine how difficult this must be for both of you. We love you and will keep the two of you in our prayers. You and Joe will have to go bowling or something - I am sure he would love a buddy to play with, I haven't been much fun lately!
Lots of love,
Erika

Tenley said...

Jordan,
I have been worried about both of you since I heard. I am so sorry. Just know you have people all over thinking of you and praying for you and wanting you to be happy. You will get there, but in the meantime lean on your friends and family.
Love, Tenley

leslie miles said...

LOOK AT US NOW!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!! Let's have some chicken!!!!!!!

Smith said...

Ha Les! This made me laugh out loud! Way to go, *slow clap*